Summer's Resolutions

This year, I was in China for New Year's Eve. Normally, I make some sort of resolutions, but this year I took the easy way out and made some broad, sweeping generalizations (not that I kept them...). Anyways, I have spent a lot of time since I returned home, doing nothing except thinking, pondering, querying, wondering, etc. And I think that it is time that I write down some of the things that I have discovered.

1) I need to travel. I learn more about the world by venturing out into it. An hour spent in a foreign country, in a foreign culture is worth more than a day spent lazing around my comfortable home. I need to see the way other people live and think, in order to understand where I come from.

2) I need to write. First of all, I will say that I am a gemini. I never placed much weight in what horoscopes told me. But recently, I began reading about gemini's and I will say that it definetely explained a lot. It explained why I have a new life's plan every week of my life, why I have to constantly be on the go, why I have to do things different than anyone I know. No matter what I decide that I want to do with my life (a small sample: scuba instructor, tiger trainer, veterinarian, philosopher, professor, chef, military officer, forensic scientist, etc.), writing is always constant. Writing is my rock. My only problem, I don't know how to market myself as a writer, but I am learning and growing up. Only time will tell what will become of me.

3) I need to be independant. The moment someone tells me what to do, I generally do the exact opposite just to prove that I can. I will make my own decisions no matter what.

4) I need to be learning constantly. I was so unhappy when I used to work in retail. I had nothing to look forward to. Every day was exactly the same, monotonous and redundant. Breaking out of that world, I realized that being active mentally was the single most rewarding thing I could do. And it's hard to maintain-it's a lot more comfortable to sit back wait for life to approach me, than to run to it. It is something I need to work on and I realize that.

So I guess, these aren't really resolutions. They are more admissions of learning. As I grow older and learn more about myself, I realize just how much more there is to learn. And I welcome that fact. I find myself interesting, which is good because at the end of the day, I'm all I've got.