Summer, A Review

Today I was talking to a friend, and she asked me "So how was your summer this year?" I thought for a moment, and then replied "Not too good." After I got off the phone, I couldn't help but think about our conversation over and over. How did I let the summer slip by me unused? What would I have rather done with my time? And why did I waste so much of it?

I remember once watching a tv show (Ally McBeal, I think...) and there was a line that went something like "At the end of the year you should be able to look back and laugh, and cry." If I look back on my summer, the only emotion that comes to mind is crying. I didn't work. I didn't travel. I didn't see that much of my friends. I didn't accomplish the few things I set out to do.

So, this gets me to thinking, was my summer a failure? YES. Unless.... Unless I take the fact that I failed miserable at living this summer, and never let myself do that again. I know inside that there are things and people that make me inexorably happy, so from now on, I need to seek out these people, situations and experiences. I let myself be unhappy. It is easier to settle and fail, then to take a risk and succeed.

I always hit these moments of extreme sadness, where I vow to change my life, change to world, and be happy trying. I don't think I want this moment to be another one of those. I am acknowledging that unhappiness is a part of life. But I am also acknowledging that I can no longer be complacent, that I need to seek out happiness instead of letting it come to me.

So how was your summer? Worth it?